In the end, we’ll all return to Him

April 28, 2013 § Leave a comment

O اللَّه , help me to say words of truth in the face of the mighty….
And to refrain from speaking ill in order to gain the applause of the weak…
And do not let me accuse my adversaries of treachery because their opinions oppose mine…

O اللَّه , should You give me wealth, do not take away my happiness…
And should You give me might, do not take away my wisdom….
And should You give me success do not take away my humility…
And should You give me modesty do not take away my sense of dignity…

O اللَّه, teach me to love others as I love myself…
And teach me to judge myself as I judge others…
And teach me that forgiveness is one of the greatest steps towards strength…

O اللَّه , do not curse me with arrogance should I be successful…
And neither with despair and hopelessness should I fail…

O اللَّه, remind me always that failure is the trial that precedes success….
Should You take away my wealth, do let me keep my hopefulness…
And should I fail, do let me keep the power of determination…
And should You take away the blessing of good health do let me keep the blessing of faith…

O اللَّه , should I have harmed others give the courage to apologise…
And should others harm me, do bless me with the courage to forgive…
And should I forget You Ya اللَّه I beg that You should not exclude me from Your compassion and clemency…

For You are The Greatest, The Vanquisher, The All Powerful on all things!!!



April 26, 2013 § Leave a comment

What’s there to be happy about? Answer me then!

“Uhhhh Kai?”


April 26, 2013 § Leave a comment

After knowing where I was situated, I was pretty speechless, excited? and super nervous at the same time. I really don’t know what to day. This is so unexpected. Should I accept the offer or decline? But isn’t this what I wanted all this time? My wish has come true. I’ve the chance to get the hell out of here but why on earth I am second guessing my move? I was so determined to get away back then. Now what had happened? What’s wrong with me? Help me Allah. You know what’s best sigh


April 25, 2013 § Leave a comment

semua aku polah semua jak salah d mata kau better ku pergi dari ku bising

April 25, 2013 § Leave a comment

“Have you ever felt so helpless
With no one by your side
As you hope to see his face
To be there and hold you while you cry?

Have you ever felt so useless
Not needed anymore
Got thrown away like trash
And left alone with a broken coeur?

Have you ever felt so neglected
Wondering what you’ve done wrong
As the universe turns quiet
And wonder where to has he gone?”

April 24, 2013 § Leave a comment

Basically with what just happened this evening, I couldn’t help but to write and post it.

I am utterly dejected and ashamed of myself. Why? As I am knowing for ridiculing our society for their lack of respect, care, love and you can name the others but truthfully I am sad to know that maybe I’m just as the same as the others. I witnessed with my very own eyes how our youth doesn’t even bother to help a man in need. They saw it, they knew what was going on, the man asked for their help yet they just look at him with an empty face as if he was an outcast. It made me realize more how our generation today are lack of morals pfftt and talk about 1 Malaysia? Yeah right

Since my car was behind him it made me see more clearly. Yet I did nothing but murmured, ” poor uncle, why isn’t anyone helping? why’s everyone just stare at him? someone please do something!” Main question is my dear, why aren’t you lending a hand yet if you already knew?

You’ve no idea how dejected I am for just sit there in the care and just watch the scene until one or two men helped him pushed and steered his car. The moment I saw he’s in trouble, I was torn in two whether to help or not because I thought since I was a girl I’m not sure if I could do any help. How shallow and narrow minded I am actually! Perhaps this is a sign from Him up there to open my eyes about everything. Sadi, you are so stupid at times you know. If you saw or knew someone who’s in need of help, just go for it. Don’t let other foolish things preoccupied your mind and more importantly your insides. One needs help then go and give one. It’s better than just look and stay still pitying. The longer you waver, the longer your will to help will fade.

I do realize at times when I wanted to help, there’s always something in me that’s trying to hold me back. I don’t know whether its my ego or what, but as far as I know it’s in me and I need to kill it. I’ve been in several events relating to this and yes I admit I am worthless and no use. I am not a malice no because I do sympathize and emphasize seeing others in trouble.

It is an eye opener for me to realize all my mistakes that I’ve did back in the past. Frankly I have not been a good person, a good daughter, a good friend and a good me for myself. O Allah, although I’m wounded because of this but if this is your way to slap myself up, then I am truly grateful and thankful to You. For it is a lesson to learn and shall be noted from now on. InsyaAllah

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April 23, 2013 § Leave a comment

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